I still remember, I won't forget
Laying down in blood and shit
The bastards laughing all around me
Blood and tears oh I can't see
I pick me up and drag myself home
Bruised and battered, broken bones
Tears in my eyes, I want to die
Trapped inside this prison of mine
And the doctors don't believe
A stranger in the mirror staring at me
Dysphoria takes me by the spine
Shakes me till I want to die
Everyone's out to discourage me
Feel like a mistake, not meant to be
An imposter climbs into my brain
Nothing but the taste of suicide remains
They tell me I was born wrong
That I will never belong
A mistake of god above
Monsters don't deserve love
I feel the punches, I feel the kicks
As they clamour, mount, and hit
They were taught to hate my kind
Prejudice nurtured in their minds
Once again I slink homeward bound
Hide away so I'm not found
There's no one for me to confide
Except the waiting arms of suicide
And the doctors don't believe
A stranger in the mirror staring at me
Dysphoria takes me by the spine
Shakes me till I want to die
Everyone's out to discourage me
Feel like a mistake, not meant to be
An imposter climbs into my brain
Nothing but the taste of suicide remains
Angels of blood
Spurting out of my veins
Screams of flesh
Needles in my brain
The cold bite of steel
A razor kisses my flesh
Hungry fingers rend my skin
A prelude worse than death
Ugly thoughts rack my soul
Eyes vomit tears to earth
Cannot bear the trauma anymore
I have no worth
Bleed me, drain me, eat me, sear me
Lick the burn marks on my skin
Take me down to the ground
Swallowed pills a funeral hymn
They tell me I was born wrong
That I will never belong
A mistake of god above
Monsters don't deserve love
Blackbraid quickly followed up their 2022 debut in 2023 with more native folk infused furious black metal. This is by no means a sophomore slump as it is equally excellent, methodical, melodical, and approachable as the first record. 9/10 RJ
What an impressive piece of black metal. This one-man hurricane is pure art. Sgah‘gahsowáh creates an haunting atmosphere. He puts so much soul in his music. Sælzer Bub
The album description mentions an “emotional apex.” That’s really the difference between Stare and the band’s previous albums. Ulcerate was always supremely technically proficient. I just didn’t care all that much. Their growth has come from making music you will feel. Metallurgical Fire